This is the point I want to let you know. I find that working as a freelancer is really challenging and not always easy. My days feel really, really hard, year over year. I am dealing with personal problems in my life.
Long story short, I graduated from high school in 2016. I have been making videos as a freelancer since I graduated from high school. The first time I received money, I was paid only “300.000-500.000 Indonesian Rupiah ($19-31)” for one video. I also offered free videos to allow me to build my portfolio and gain experience.
After graduating from high school in 2016, I pursued my studies in graphic design at university. But my studies did not go well, so I decide to quit in 2018. For your information, I studied graphic design, it was not my choice, instead it was my parents’ choice. I wanted to study film, but my parents didn’t agree. So I just followed my mother’s wishes. This is the beginning of why I’ve been having problems lately.
From 2016 to 2018, I started my job as a freelancer and a student. It’s challenging for me to maintain a balance between working and studying. I couldn’t simply leave this freelance job because I enjoy it so much. I am very excited to improve my skills in this field.
My life did not get any better when I left college. I am really, terribly stressed. I truly had many problems with my family. Year after year, I try to manage my anxiety so that my life will get better. But I can’t.
In 2022, I decided to go to a psychiatrist. I was diagnosed with depression. The last few years have been terrible for me. I don’t feel excited about life, I’m not in a good mood, I avoid social media, I avoid all types of conversations, and I avoid getting around my friends. I simply want to be alone. This is truly bothering me. After I had medication, my life slowly became better.
I can finally stop taking my medicine in early 2024. I feel a lot healthier and better than before. That’s when I made the decision to go back to work. I genuinely want to move on from my past.